i like being home alone.

when i occasionally don't have school, am pmsing, and alone at home; i like to do a number of things.

wake up at 10:30,
leave my hair in it's bed head braid,
wear my comfy clothes (sports bra, cut off shirt & soccer shorts),
take some medicine for the painnn,
make a chocolate cake,
blast glee & uncle kracker from my computer,
eat a lot of cookie dough,
plan my future summers in far away countries,
fill out job applications,
look at clothes online that i wish i could afford,
say i love you to him (: ,
look at harry potter world with my brother,
talk about magic,
stalk people on facebook,
think about writing a book,

i think i'll go eat some cake now.

so here i am sitting at barnes & noble,
& there is the cutest group of old ladies sitting next to me.

knitting club

they all came to knit together at barnes. i find this absolutely adorable.
this makes me want to learn how to knit.
i want to make sweet blankets & scarves.

i hope i'm a cute grandma
that bakes cookies.

i want, scratch that,

i'm going:

• to be a gardener
• to have a cute little apartment or house
• to cook amazing food
• to be a size 4
• to change someones life in a good way
• to have a husky
• to own a jeep
• to be able to pull of red lipstick
• to be 18, just wait
  
• to be the best mother
  
• to someday understand my genetics homework
• try hard and go to sleep at acceptable times
• to exercise my butt off the next 2 months
• to be a better friend

now adults... haaa not.

senior year? check.

growing up? check.

acting mature? occasionally.

i'm fairly blessed with the ability to only have one class this year at the high school, plus the fact it's every other day.
hallelujah.

on the other hand, it gives me a sad feeling. this is our last year to enjoy everything high school has to give. this is our last step till adulthood. we'll be out on our own, discovering what life is really about. going off to college, new friends, official jobs, marriage, starting our own families, raising our future prosperity.

time has gone by so fast now, just imagine how much faster the clock will turn from this moment on.

so class of 2011,
do me a couple favors?
live this year to the fullest, celebrate this important part of your life,
reach out to someone, do something you've never done before,
make it worth while.
most of all never forget what it's like to be carefree & reckless.
your only young once.

just confusing.

it's currently 11:28 p.m on monday, september 6th, 2010
& i'm starvingggg.
but i'm just too gosh dang lazy to get up and go to the kitchen.
i should probably go to bed.
i felt like i needed to add something to the blog since
i've been very much denying it of posts.
sorry blog.

i really don't want to wake up early for school everyday.
i think a sweatshirt and ponytail will be very much appropriate this year.
i should start running.
or maybe just exercising in general?
i don't quite understand why i don't,
i do enjoy it a lot when i do.
weird.


shoulds of 2010:

1. go to sleep early.
2. finish and mail letters to father
3. duck-tape greg in his sleep
4. clean my room
5. actually save money
6. figure out photoshop
7. get a jobbbbb
8. new wardrobe
9. try something new
10. figure out why my room is -50 degrees all the time
11. ask why eyes get watery when you yawn?
    
12. add more to this list

goodnight.